Did you miss me?!

-is shot- -dies-

Okay, okay, I've caught up on my over 3,000 things in my inbox.

Here's my explanation...

I've been...busy...and really depressed...and really angry...and I wasn't sure what was reality or fantasy more than once... I was just really stressed out and I had to take a break, but I really wanted to get my work done even if it killed me. In the end, I can't really remember why I was depressed and angry, all I remember is that I was really depressed and angry. I don't know if I lost my sanity or whatever. It felt like I was up in the air when all I wanted was to get back to the ground where things made sense... But the ground kept getting away from me. Mocking me with how safe it was compared to the air. Right now, I'm still trying to forget whatever it was that made me depressed and angry because I don't want to be depressed and angry anymore, and whatever it was, I'd probably be better off forgetting it. Or so I keep telling myself. I want to tell the difference between reality and fantasy again... I never had the chance to draw anything the whole time because I was scared the picture would start talking to me. Or was that a hallucination? I don't know. I just don't want to go back to it... It's too scary...

Hoshi: OI! Quit it with this whole kicked puppy thing! You're here now, ain't ya?!

You always have to appear...

Hoshi: Come on, if you don't want to go back to that again, then you need to be more upbeat! Let's look at this stack of deviations you forgot to click on.

Hoshi!

Hoshi: "Deviations by ~chibisunrise" Hey, isn't that your kouhai?!

Agh...

Akumu: Hey, she drew us too!

Hoshi: When did she start drawing things with MS Paint?

She's going to kill me... I've been gone too long, and I haven't been teaching her anything! I missed her transition from traditional art to digital art and I can't yell at her for never notifying me! While I tried to get a grasp on reality, she was developing her skills without someone to encourage her. I'M ASHAMED!

Hoshi: Well, what'd you expect? You've been gone for over a year.

-sobs- And she's experimented so much on her own. And she's already a good artist, so why did she ever ask me to be her teacher?! It's not like she needs me! I'm a horrible role model; I'm ashamed!

Hoshi: She commented on the deviations you posted too.

OH GODS SHE SAW THAT TOO! I'M ASHAMED!

Hoshi: Quit drowning in shame and go teach your kouhai a thing or two.

She's going to kill me.

Hoshi: Good, maybe she'll bring you back to reality while she's at it^^

If I survive, I swear I'll draw more... Wish me luck.